Leaving 223 13th street again

It's permanent. I'm actually doing something permanent, not in the usual sense. I fear the permanent, the static; it's a lot of adulthood to deal with. But this move is me letting go again, getting to a healthy point. I'll have new responsibilities on my plate, but no longer a landlord, I ain't no slumlord. I've been waiting and hoping for this moment for almost a year, a smile should be creeping over my face. I'm complacent.

Welcome to my apartment. I hope you enjoy it and wear it well like I did. I'm packing up almost any remnant of my experience and throwing out a lot of things I never thought I'd part with. It's better this way, live with less, grow in new surroundings.

Not poetic, methodical. I'm amazed by my friends who travel and leap from one place to the other, and I wish I could do it more. I miss you all right now: Luke, Lauren, Aurora, Connie, Janna, Amanda, Alex, Laura (both of you), Melissa (all of you), and time escapes me. I love reading your blogs, Lauren and I miss you a lot. I hope I see you all soon. Oh I will. I'm making this plan to do everything I can to be the friend I miss (don't be confused).

I was supposed to go to DC this weekend but packing takes precedence, so I'm in Brooklyn. I want to be done with this, I'm lazy yet determined yet thoughtful, how does this work? Sorry all, this is my babbling, I'm leaving my home drivel. There must be some morsel of intrigue in this entry. Do keep reading, though.

I care about you.

A cat comes into my room and my hunger is stifled briefly. I breathe deeply, look longingly at my notebook for respite, nothing there. Blank pages abound, I am on a mission. I will return.

Countdown to Philly

On Friday night I'm heading on that Chinatown bus back down to Philly and you should come with me. I'm couchsurfing with Teresa, home of many comfortable couches and the most welcoming host I've met. We met at a UPenn college party where I taught Ross how to ride a bike.

Saturday night is the show that we worked very hard getting for Worst Case Ontario on their way back from playing the Launch Festival in Lancaster, PA. It's going to be at the Khyber in Old City, so please stop by if you are in the city that night.

Vacation will be such a sweet respite from a challenging week, another challenging week. No boyfriend on this trip, just girls, my band and Ross. Sometimes the bus relaxes me, so familiar. I know the right moment to call to say "I'm in town, when are you free?" I go through my phone and see who is philly, not like Facebook or CouchSurfing, but my own personal locator. I organize chat lists like this (by location). I have friends all over the world, even if their locations change, this method satisfies me.

Once I get into town, I walk through the city from one end to the other. Why oh why can't there be a good transit system? It's okay, I'd rather walk. I have a favorite bookstore and many restaurants and coffeehouses that I have yet to try. It's a liveable, comfortable city that I have been a frequent visitor of (used to call it my 2nd home city) since I met Ross and his friends in 2003.

I'm looking forward.

CS 101

Love everyone you meet. Explore universal ideas. Make friends with someone in every part of the world. 

From Bastien: "meet up with friends' friends so you have news to share."

Stay awake as long as you can. You don't want to miss a moment.

Always visit.

I miss couchsurfing, a lot. I'm going to travel this summer and there's nothing that can stop me. I recently told my co-workers about my penchant for cheap travel. They were interested and excited to have me as a resource. I can look forward which is really important. I look forward to new places and people and sharing everything I've got.

UPDATE

Let's go for a massive update. I am so sorry for not writing in six months. It's been hectic, boring, poor and some other adjectives that I really don't care to mention. I have barely traveled which is very sad. However, I went down to DC and Philly as per usual and have had wonderful experiences there. In the next two weekends (outside of this one) I will be heading to both cities and my first weekend back I will be in NYC celebrating Eric's birthday.

I have a job now, writing about wed sites. I have a boyfriend now, that's Eric, yeah. I'm going to start writing now. I promise.

My friend Mandy just moved to South Korea and she seems to be having the best time. I'd really like to go there, as I would most places. But I'd especially like to explore Asia (in general), which sounds crazy. I know it's a whole continent, but I've really only been to two continents. Europe is beautiful too of course and I want to return oh so badly. With this new job, I am paying off my debt and saving with cheap rent at a house nearby.

This time in my life right now is going to make me understand why I came back, what I had left to give to NYC. Cliches avoided, I am biding my time here, waiting for another chance to leave. That's not fair but I can't help wanting to see it all.